echos of my everything %%: March 2006

Monday, March 27, 2006

haha todayy is a gooooood day! for i dont know what reason but mainly cos it has beeen GOOOOOOD! VERYY GOOOOT :D haha i have learned that to be sad is just a mental state of mind right now im just contented with whatever is going on in my life right noww and to hell with all the grievences from the past weeks:P its too tiring to be sad lahhh

haiyoh haiyohh i dont know what to blog about anymore hurrr my life is boring haha

Sunday, March 26, 2006

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

this song is hell good :) its one of those songs where you fall in love with it upon hearing it haha nickleback is a genius!

Thursday, March 23, 2006

haha i dont know why but i just hate it when people throw remarks like "oh i like your shoes" cos after that i wont know how to respond except do the only polite thing and say thankyou then after that the conversation dies cos the conversation just stops at shoes:P

nickleback's far away

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

so you know it when you are dozing off during a super ultra boring lecture and NOT DISTURBING ANYONE but trying to keep alive by doodling on your fullscap paper when suddenly some crazy pmsing tcher walks infront of you and says " cheryl! can you please stop drawing on your paper you have not been listening during lessons and lectures for the past three months and all you can do is draw on your paper ...." wahhhhh what a piss off if i was not tired i would have kicked her or press her red dottt idiot mannnn. haha okay so apart from that right the more important question is : COUNCIL OR SHOOTING! haha see right if i join shooting i get to shoot stuff haha i can grow up to be a marksman mannn how cool is that lahh! and then i can join the army and be a sniper :D or i could wanna try to be a counciller and council people haha but then again i would make a terrible counciller haha :P

haha i bought a super nice notebook for only 6.80 haha ITS BIG ITS NICE AND ITS CHEAP :D

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

so i better start on my chem reading ups on my first three month notes before i lose touch and falll wayyy farrrr behind in class actually now im starting to feel i cant catch up already so i better buck up!

today is a boring day as usual i found out i just slapped on another two kg onto myself instead of lose two kg hurrr talk about losing weight mann. but i dont know why these few weeks i have the great tendancy to keep eating non stop craving for alot of food like JUNK serious junk like fries chips and all aiyohhhh better stop the cravings before i get any fattter ehhh being fifty over for a girl is NOTTTT GOOOOD wahhhh. tmr is dance tryouts and hit the bookshop to buy files and pens and school supplies haha i still cant believe im going for dance tryouts part of me doesnt even know if i will be commited in it maybe i should really go and join judoooo haha and kick someones ass man ehhh which is quite good so i can tell my mother that i can stay out more often cos i learn judo mannn UNTOUCHABLE LAHH!!!!

Monday, March 20, 2006

haha so i have found the super way to handle the no skirt situation : i borrow a skirt and wear it for the whole week :) cos the guy at the uniform place says that stock will arrive in one weeks time urgh cant believe this is so damn inefficient !!! like dont you know this is the only time in the year when there is a rush for uniforms and if you arent a uniform sell for the first time then you ought to know that you shld carry more of the demanded sizes and not have pple waiting for them and the poor students are just uniformless or have half their uniforms which doesnt really help man. cj shld change uniform seller to bibi and baba haha .

today is a boring day in school just recieved the new timetable and realised that we have no early days nor do we have any late days cos everyday ends at four with the exception of tuesdays and fridays where there is cca so school ends at 2. so wednesday is coming and i am thinking wth i should just go for the dance auditions even though i dont think i can get through because the dance instructor is quite fierce :P aiyohhh which means i have to end up in fitness club haha which i heard from one senior that all they do is sit down and gossip (haha i know i know my kind of pple:P) but i want to snap out of that phase and be enthu in SOMETHING instead of CANOEING cos canoeing is just i-am-sorry-ahhhhh-i-am-just-tooo-tired-to-be-enthu-mannnn :P

on the other handddddd i took the wrong bus home todayy haiyohhhh i just wanted to have a gooood sleep in the bus when i realise EHHHHHHH SHIT SHIT UNCLE QUICK STOP THE BUS AHHH YOU ARE TURNING INTO THE WRONG LANE!!!! so i had to take three buses before i cld get home haha and then after that i went home and collapsed into a heap. maybe tonight i should sleep early again like 9 MAYBEEEEEEE

Sunday, March 19, 2006

haha okay yay i got another book thanks to sand and good ol TIMES bookshop cos they had 20% off :D haha so instead of 17 bucks its 13 bucks save 4 dollars mann! haha but the book is mighty thin :P so i shld finish reading the first book that i got.

tmr is school day and i havent gotten my skirt fantastic ! i think im just gonna slug through the day in a size 31 skirt then better than nothing before i get my skirt hemmed up nicely. k wahhh my blog is super super super super deee duperly boringgg haha other than that russel peters is drop dead funny man!

Friday, March 17, 2006

i realise that i spend alot of money on food everytime i go out its always on foood foooood foood and nothing else then at the end of the day i realise that I HAVE NO MORE MONEY WHY!!!!! BEACUSE ALL THE MONEY TURNED INTO FATS ! anyway today was an okay day went to buy a book :) haha and then after that i felt fulfilled because the book is quite interllectual :D

and i am lacking sleep i cldnt get to sleep at all last night haiyohhh and today when i went down to cj to collect my uniform they said it was out of stock again and come back when ?! ON MONDAY AT 6.30 AM wahhhhhh crazy asses man i dont wake up that early just to collect my skirts idiots mann.

tmr is saturdayy i start new tution hope its fun. right now im just waiting for my sister to bring home a bag of chips for me to eat :D

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

sometimes i wonder if i do regret going to cj and not ac hmmmmmm

welll if you are going to put a full stop to it so am i aiyohhh i think i shld just change cca man!

hur super shag :P maybe cos its the first day that i am finally going for canoeing training urgh pain everywhere man! i grew significantly darker again wahh man right after i did circuits and the sun shone damn brightly on my face i think i look like bao gong okayy super dark man ! hope i dont go back to the pri 6 days where i look like a walking chocolate ice cream cos back then i was damn dark and damn sweet :D haha!

k so i have alot more things to accomplish before the week closes more meet ups and collecting of stuff haiiiiiiiiyohhhh. tmr is going to be another busy day again maybe going for romp. ehhhh and im so desperately in need of money that i hope the giving out of pamphlets for ten bucks per hour is not scam man PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET IT NOT BEEEEEEEEEEEEE! anyway how far scamy can it be man! it cant be a rape cos aiyah if you havent seen me before who would wanna rape me ?! and if really wanna rape right im going to be doing it with two other big big guys hurrr so they will beat the chekopek up lahhh :P ahhh but the other part which is quite believable is that after giving out the pamphlets the guy woudlnt pay up mann i think i will go hunt him down and shoot his ass lah! ask the cj air rifle pple to go and shoot his ass man! haha but i seriously hope its real lahh better than macs can macs is like CHILD LABOUR 2.80 per hour like huh?! i think i help pple walk dog also more than that man !

okay hope everyone's week is going by fineeeeee x)

Monday, March 13, 2006

k today is a good day :) its also a lazy day :) went for mr au's and then out for lunch with sand and then walking arnd and then back home to laze arnd oh man its such a hot day! tmr i have to go kayaking and the sun just seems so hot today what abt tmr urgh and then my stupid mother wants me to wear long sleeve shirt and pants to go kayaking like wahhhh its alrd hot enough DO YOU WANT ME TO DIE OF HEAT STROKE! some pple just have no brains. i mean yeah you are scared that i will turn dark but i will put sunblock !!! SPF100000 rather than wear some lover sleeved shirt omg thats like damn stupid lahh!

anyway i think hello! magazine is not just gossipy its also informative haha and they have really big pictures also everyone who is an avid magazine reader should go and buy it! haha for eight bucks its really worth it man! okie hope tmr i got to do abit more retail therapy before i go kayaking (oh man and my mom just picked out a BLACK LONG SLEEVED SHIRT FOR ME TO WEAR TMR) SOME PPLE REALLY DONT HAVE ANY BRAINS AT ALL!!!! oh man now im damn pissed okie so i shall stop blogging for now

Sunday, March 12, 2006

yay! tmr is officially the march hols :D finally i think its truely deserving cos of sucha rush week last week i need sleep to cover the sleep that was lost last week man! which is a lot ALOT!

but this week there are errands to run and im happy to say that ive done most already :D picked up my stupid graphic calculator wahh that thing is really a waste of money man! i can only draw graphs with it and thats all! for 172 bucks i shld be able to surf online msg pple with that calculator or go online shopping aiyohh talk abt expensive man. ohhh yeahh and also im finally done with my theory exam haha grade 5 sad to sayy but i think im going to fail but who cares after this im dropping piano! what a relief!

so this coming week i have to :
go down to cj to get my tie and my skirt
go kayaking
go to the chalet thing
hunt for a new wallet or at least a bigger one
go for some new tution
go to the gym

oooohhh sounds half fun and half not.

Friday, March 10, 2006

finally its the end of the week already what a big big relief im too damn tired and shagged its just great that the week has ended at least i know that this week is a closure for me and a fresh start for my jc life :) im tired from everything i want the momentum to stop and get my life back on track. evn until now i can still feel the fear i had two days ago, what it was like to be alone hope that feeling never comes back to me again .

Thursday, March 09, 2006

and its so unbelievable :)

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA I COULD JUST LAUGH EVERYWHERE I GO MAN

GUESS WHAT !!!!!! I BLOOODY GOT INTO CJ !!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! IM OVER THEW MOOON OVER THE STARS OVER THE HEAVENS HAPPY I RECIEVED THEIR CALL AT SUCH SUCH SUCH AN UNEXPECTED TIME TODAYYY!

today i woke up feeling just as gloomy as normal as usual i wanted to kill myself that why on earth am i being posted to yj its just so bloody unfair and that the whole world shld just go and die. so went to yj reported then sneaked out again then had to rush like hell down to ac so that i can appeal then the guy told me after the appeal we'll let you know by today if you are through!

and so well enough i waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited cos they said that they will call me at 12 or after 12 haha then at 1 sth then suddenly some unknown number called me so i hurry picked it up and then wahhhh wahh wahhhh my heavens! ITS CJJJJ HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

looks like brother paul is going to have to tahan me for the next two years :D haha well i just have to say that after all the waiting and the dying of anxiety and the confusion yeahh like what sand said is really true PAITIENCE AND FAITH :D cos God really does provide and create miracles :) its been a tough and trying week full of ups and downs and i belive i have matured in many ways i guess this is what i would call a trial a trial of God :)

well so anyway alls well and goooooood now and i just cants stop smiling nor thanking God because God really does answer prayers its just a matter of time :)

:D :D :D:D:D:D:D thankyou lord im so lukeh lukeh lukeh!

Friday, March 03, 2006

cried uncontrollably like shit last night somehow i just feel so alone in this thing my dad came in to talk to my sis abt me and the stuff abt moving to canada and i dont know why even at one am when i was pretending to sleep but was actually unable to due to coffee high tears rolled down, streaming and then they just cldnt stop. inside i have to admit i am practically broken inside at this point im at a loss im scared of whats to come but yet i know i will have to embrace it so quickly and on monday i dont know what to do. i know that whatever i do now cannot turn back time even though i regret alot of things that i shld not have done but now i just know that i have to fully place my turst in God right now im walking on the line right now i cant see two meteres infront or behind all i can do is to run to God in prayer somehow i hope after time it'll heal me internally. my eyes are tired from crying they are just swollen from the 24/7 crying ytd.

lord, im sorry for all the terrible sinning that i have done during these first three months i have let down my parents in every way possible, being a rebel and being a disappointment to them in terms of my olevel results and being such a letdown cos my ss is so much better than i am i cant get over crying lord i need you

desperatley, mend me.

have you forsaken me?

okay today is one of the worst worst days ive had in the entire 2006 year and the year is barely ending yet. well today actually is the best and the worst. but after everything that i had to battle through this morning im finally over that rough patch (hopefully:P) and look at the whole situation realistically. for one its damn terribly exhausting to keep dabbling in this kind of shit first there was prelims posting where my sister placed the posting thingy wrongly then there was olevels where my results was totally like shit then today this had to happen besides jinx nothing else can descirbe the situation that im in ahs but nvm lah look at the brighter side some people were spoted to ite haha ! so thankgod :P

purpose?

Thursday, March 02, 2006

well today is still the same as yesterday nothing has changed except the fact that today is thurs and yesterday was wednesday. my dad still is as shitty as ever ahhhhhh!!!! i feel like folding myself up and shipping ymself off to canada in the solace of four seasons. yeahh and better still i'll be there without my parents which is joy cos commotion errupted in the house again when my mom made a fuss out of absolutely nothing. haha i dont get and i dont think i'll ever get her. no i dont think im one of these ignorant asskids who dont understand how hard their parents try to get them onto the right path in their life but yeahh! i understand when you are just being plain insenstive OVER FOR GOD SAKES NOTHINGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!! i come home at best and try to stay home and please her and like keep some kind of low profile in her bad books but it kinda doesnt really work that wayy wahhhh it works in the everything you do sucks way from your face all the way down to doing bible studies on my own. i fhate it.

well on the birghter side ponned tutorial to go to toa payoh macs to chill haha TOA PAYOH!!!! i'd never thought id ever EVERRRR chill there :P but you know i desperately wanted to get my ass into town but then some people were just insisting toa payoh was the way to go lahh haha :P haha its really my saving grace that ive found these friends in cj wonder what would happen to first three month days without them think id just rot and die in one corner! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh then tmr is the last day of first three months! hell id better make the best use out of it lahhh! then next week is second intake and i bretter pray even harder that i get back into cj!

haha i just realised i dont ever think im gonna get attached in my freaking two years of jc life NEVER EVERRRR haha i dont know i just dont like the idea of being tied down to some commitment crap (which im facing right now) wahhhh so irritating my god untahanable mann.

guys really do come from mars

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

okayyyy! so im not dead yet which i thought i wld be rotting at home doing absolutely nothing. slept right after lunch which was at 12 so being a good pig i sleep from 12.30 to arnd 4 wake up eat somemore food then sleep again until dinner time :P haha wahhhh im the superduper pig God of all pigs! not even during the Dec holidays was my sleeping routine like that ahhhh so much for a holiday today.

anyways next week is the week where alot of things are gonna change! pple are leaving classes are moving not that its anything bad or what but just the thought of leaving the people i have made friends with and so routinely used to seeing them 5 days of the week throughout 2006 makes me sadd!! until now i feel that whatever im doing is still in a blur its really in one of these situations where im just in a loss kinda like floating in mist and skating on black ice kind of feeling and all i can do is just pray hard every night so that i kinda have a much clearer sense of direction. Right now everything is just spewed everywhere ive got so much mixed emotions pent up inside its almost like i should just be condemed.

i just dont comprehend you

ohhh and there are a thousand and one things i wanna get!!! (as usual:P )

david and goliath tee///rolling stones tee///new flip flops///birkenstocks(still deciding if i should get them)///a larger wallet///the zara skirt///and more more more markers :D :D

echos of my everything %%