cried uncontrollably like shit last night somehow i just feel so alone in this thing my dad came in to talk to my sis abt me and the stuff abt moving to canada and i dont know why even at one am when i was pretending to sleep but was actually unable to due to coffee high tears rolled down, streaming and then they just cldnt stop. inside i have to admit i am practically broken inside at this point im at a loss im scared of whats to come but yet i know i will have to embrace it so quickly and on monday i dont know what to do. i know that whatever i do now cannot turn back time even though i regret alot of things that i shld not have done but now i just know that i have to fully place my turst in God right now im walking on the line right now i cant see two meteres infront or behind all i can do is to run to God in prayer somehow i hope after time it'll heal me internally. my eyes are tired from crying they are just swollen from the 24/7 crying ytd. lord, im sorry for all the terrible sinning that i have done during these first three months i have let down my parents in every way possible, being a rebel and being a disappointment to them in terms of my olevel results and being such a letdown cos my ss is so much better than i am i cant get over crying lord i need you
desperatley, mend me.have you forsaken me?
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